I can't even describe what I'm feeling right now, all i can say is that, it hurts a lot.💔
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Look mom, your daughter who used to cry because she wanted a toy, is now crying because she saw such a heavy situation and can only be silent and accept everything without having to tell anyone.
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Sometimes we don’t want advice or solutions to our problems, we simply need someone to listen without judgment, to be there, to remind us that we aren’t alone, to hold our hands, to make us believe that we will be okay. ❤️
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what the worst part of being strong? no one knows you are struggling too :’)
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For those of you that have experienced some hardships, don't give up on your dreams.
sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is to leave.
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“that feeling when you're too tired and drained from everything and you don't know what to do anymore but cry.
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the worst part about being strong is nobody knows you're hurting.
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I wish I am a robot. no feelings, no sadness, no pain.
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I wasn't really feeling myself lately. I felt so empty, and a part of me was losing its sanity. I thought distracting myself is the best way to escape from this feeling, but here I am, losing myself even more every day. I am not alone, right? I am not alone feeling this way. But I wonder what people do when their hearts are feeling empty. I wonder what they do to feel alive.
I wish I could at least try to comfort myself and pretend that I am just having a bad day. I want to convince myself that I am not having a bad life, but this emptiness consumes every piece of me. I hope I could also tell everyone that I'm okay without having a pang of sadness in my chest. I am just really tired of telling people that I'm fine, when the truth is, I'm losing my mind slowly.
No one knows that all this time, I am not okay. But I silently hope that somehow, someone will see it— the tiredness in my eyes and the sadness behind my smiles.
— Shiori X
She has two faces.
One face that she shows the world, loved ones, and in public.
The smiling one.
The happy, friendly, and talkative one.
The confident one full of laughter and positivity.
The face that everyone is used to.
“I’m Losing Feeling Within My Soul”
I’m losing all feeling within my soul
My existence is fading, life is taking its toll
My dream told me not to wake up today
“You’re dying too fast, your soul can’t taste the day
My reality is now dimming all the lights
The darkness appears then my hopes take flight
Down-time, no-time in the corner I sit
Cutting my flesh to disappear, so many bloody bits
To be nothing is a truth of a feeling I own
To live beyond the horizon, I became unknown
This image I hold for my mind's eye to see
Never understanding my ways of what I became to be
Real-time, every time I swallow what I chew
My forgiveness is always free but my trust doesn't exist anymore.
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the hardest part is when you can't control your emotions anymore. you just suddenly cry and breakdown.
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Being a sensitive person costs you a lot, you always try to hide your feelings, you always pretend that nothing happened in order not to be labeled as dramatic, nobody knows how details hurt you, nobody knows how much you will overthink a word told by a beloved person, nobody will ever understand how those tiny actions matter.❤️🩹
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What if,
see that person? That one who looks so detached and mysterious?
Imagine! What if they fall
in love with you?
Then you get to see their smile,
what they look like without their glasses,
and how cute they look
when they're embarrassed –
all these things that no one else gets to see. Just you.
Ah, how sweet! How special! How
selfish.
I'm sorry,
it must have hurt when they didn't
catch you and left you
bleeding and broken beyond repair.
But be bitter not.
Nothing ever comes for free anymore;
You are now only paying the price for
falling and failing to figure out
that you have been
selfishly expecting someone to be
someone that they are not.
The first time I met you,
I started with "what if" too.
But as we got closer, oh my God,
as we got closer,
I started wanting instead:
I want to hold your hand
and feel your pulse,
I want to wake up next to you
every morning,
and every mourning
when I'm broken and falling apart,
I want to be embraced by you
so gently
yet at the same time
so tightly
that it just…
puts me back together.
Hey… I'm done
living my life imagining
what it would be like to
meet someone like you.
You're here...
You are finally here…
Ah... I can now let go of “what ifs”
and start embracing “what is.”
I guess this is the part where I say
I love you --
even though you steal all the blanket,
even though there are days
when you can only love
yourself, and
even though you turned out to be completely
different from what I expected.
Fear not, because this time,
there is no way you can ever let me
down.
Show me a hundred sides of you
that you think will change my mind
and I will show you
a hundred reasons why
I can never love you
less
now that I know you
more.
― suishima, What Is.
I’ve noticed you’re going through some tough times and I want you to know that I’m here for you. You’re incredibly strong, even if it might not feel that way right now.
Remember, it’s okay to feel overwhelmed and to take time for yourself. You’re not alone in this journey.
If you need someone to talk to, to sit in silence with, or just need a break from everything, I’m here. Together, we can face these challenges.
Your resilience is inspiring, and I believe brighter days are ahead. Let’s take it one day at a time. ✨
I've always been the sacrifice—for the greater good of everyone.
Nobody... has ever made me feel that they can give up the whole fvcking world to save me from misery. So, I end up walking away, like a good sacrificial lamb that I should be.
Yet at times, I pray that someone's gonna stop and pull me back to life saying,
"I don't care if the world will vanish just by the mere choice of you trying to live. You've sacrificed enough.
So please, this time...save yourself.
'Cause the world can definitely handle itself without you pulling that heroic stunt that's gonna get you emotionally dèad."
—K. RDV.
people know her
as a woman
who's independent,
responsible one
but no one
knows that
she also
gets tired,
she also stays awake
at night to cry,
she also thinks
of giving up,
she also tries
to end her life,
she's strong but
she breaks too
sweetie,
she's just doing it silently.
— Stell
I don’t just let go of something or someone just because they weren’t meant for me. I hold on to it for a while until my heart gets tired of waiting, my eyes stop crying; And until I can finally accept that it wasn’t really for me. Like any other, I need time to let go of the things and that person. So, sorry if I still keep on telling the story about it. It still lingers in me. Those what-ifs still haunt me. And I could not help but still crave those things and people I thought were mine to keep.
—Hyera Maze
they only see my mistakes
but they don't see how tired i am,
they don't see how exhausted i am
they don't see how much unloved i am,
they only see me as failure
that everyone hates,
and that's it.
_ Mauve
Sometimes, I want to scream and tell the world how not okay I am. I want to say that I'm slowly losing my mind and losing all my hope to live. But instead of doing it, I stayed silent and act as if there is nothing wrong with me.
The truth is, sometimes I just want to cry in front of everyone. I want to tell them that I am slowly giving up and I couldn't help myself from my own thoughts. The voices in my head are getting louder and they are telling me how worthless I am. I need someone to understand what I feel, but how can somebody understand me when I can't even speak about what is happening to me? I can't even speak about my pain.
I'm tired. I used to tell myself that I'm going to be okay soon. But now it feels like I'm losing my sanity. I'm tired of this feeling. I wish I could just forget that I'm hurting.
— Shiori X
The second face is the real face.
The one she tries not to show anyone.
The face behind closed doors, when she's alone away from the world, in the security of her own emotions that she doesn't want to show anyone else or have to explain them.
It's exhausting trying to look happy and like nothing is bothering you.
The face that stares off at nothing or patterns on the floor or drapes.
The face that cries in the shower, in bed, car rides alone, cries sitting on the couch, or doing things around for house.
The sad face that stares back at her in the mirror and looks nothing like she used to be.
Well to her anyway. Others say she looks the same. The face that looks strong to the people she knows, but is really just shards of broken glass inside.
Yes, the girl that was there for everyone, and strong for others...is now split into two.
Two faces, one broken spirit.
She can't bear the losses.
It feels like a chapter of a wonderful book closed never to be open again.
All she has are memories and visions in her head that she plays over and over.
Nothing is the same to her.
Everything is different. She can't cope with daily life, her Doctor said. So she writes to help herself, and she has her two faces.
What's funny is, the sad face is the face worth a thousand words underneath in the depths of complexity.
While the happy face full of laughter, love, positiveness, and fun...is a straight shooter."
-️ Michele McKenna | Artwork : unknown
It all becomes a part of me, this skin all black and blue
So, I dressed in black for years, to my insanity I tried to hide
I was always found, my dreams always showed me how I died
My soul didn’t believe life never threw a rose away
My soul's path was strewn with thorns, a future of bloody days
Cuts and rips of my past on my curtained soul stage
I now sit in the audience watching my soul grow into dead age
No more days are written, my soul has closed its pen
I stood off to the side of life knowing, my time was not when
It’s over now and I smile for my home awaits my return
On this trip was my demise, all my return tickets I would burn
I love the part where someone that's been really unlucky in love finally meets someone that makes them feel seen, heard, & understood.
I love the part where someone that's been really unlucky in love finally meets someone that makes them realize why it didn't work out with anyone else.
I love the part where two people that were hurt by love come together to heal, grow, & evolve. I just love love. Being in love. Movies & stories about love. Seeing people in love. It's all SO beautiful to me.."
